I watch the traffic as it travels down the road. I watch people as we pass by each other on the street, in a store, or at different events. I look into the weeping – aged eyes of other elderly people, and I look at the wonderment in the eyes of an infant, absorbing every seconds worth of sight, smell, taste, sound, and touch. Children…full of energy, full of unanswered questions, still willing to innocently absorb with little to no influence of the ego.
Heavenly Father how can it be that so much time has passed and yet humans still refuse to accept You? You are the only reality in this physical realm we are present in. I watch the traffic as it travels down the road and wonder if anyone is offering You praise. I watch people as we pass by each other on the street, in a store, or at different events and wonder if there is any character of entreaty to You present. I look into the weeping – aged eyes of the elderly and see a lifetimes worth of struggle, pain, pleasure, and still…confusion. Father, can it be that only an infant is able to separate consciousness, the mind, from the physical self?
For many people the word God does not mean very much. They do not know who God is or what He's done. They do not know whether there is only one God or many gods-or whether there is any God at all. They may have some general ideas about God and made use His name in their ordinary conversation, but they definitely did not know Him. And they aren't at all sure that it is even possible to know anything about Him. They are not terrified by His awesome holiness, they are not afraid of His perfect justice, and they are not comforted by His gracious promises. They have no idea whether or not God knows any more about them than they know about Him. And they have no idea how to find out. Whether God truly exists or not, He definitely does not have a significant place in their present life or in their plans for the future (Roels, E., 2014).
Although I had reminders throughout my 60+ years of physical existence, I just refused to accept reality. I was more than content to live my illusion. That is, the illusion of believing only in myself; relying on myself, and not fully accepting the Truth. How foolish I was to entertain the idea that I had my existence figured out. That I knew better than God’s Word. How ashamed I am for not understanding and deeply appreciating what Christ Jesus went through in order that I might have salvation – the opportunity for total forgiveness of my sins. Allow me to share just one thing that finally pushed me far enough to think beyond myself (my ego).
There is more than enough real evidence to accept Christ Jesus existed. There is more than enough real evidence to support the fact that He was whipped (scourged) with a flagrum before being humiliated, spit on, having a thorn "crown" dug into His head, being made to carry a cross to the location He was to be nailed to it. Jesus’ belief and faith was/is THAT solid! How ashamed I am for not understanding and deeply appreciating what Christ Jesus went through in order that I might have salvation – the opportunity for total forgiveness of my sins. How ashamed I am for resisting the Truth for 60+ years…for living in and totally accepting my illusion.
My intense daily study and research has uncovered far more archeological findings and other historical materials than one needs to confirm - without a shadow of a doubt - that the Bible is the Truth. In my ministry training I made the decision to challenge myself with another doctoral level program. Earlier in this posting I referred to Roels, E., 2014. He is a facilitator with the Christian Leadership Institute which offers the program I mentioned. Allow me to share another gem from Dr. Roel, “The Bible contains sixty-six different “books” or “documents” which were written over a period of 1500 years by forty different men who lived on three different continents. However, each part of the Bible, when properly understood, agrees with all the other parts” (emphasis mine).
The writers of the Bible taught and believed that their writings were inspired by God “God-breathed”. We should recognize that some parts of the Bible were written in a poetic style or with figures of speech that should not be interpreted literally. That being said, we must give thanks that those who received messages from God often wrote them down so that others could also benefit from them. Many of those written messages were collected together in…The Holy Bible.
My mind, with its limited range of understanding, coupled with my own ego would not allow me to understand and accept that “God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship Him in spirit and in truth” (John 4:24, KJV). Praying in the Spirit, in the name of Christ Jesus, Heavenly Father please, please forgive my years of egotistically inspired hard-hearted denial of your Truth. I humbly come to You asking that my story might help another wake up. Amen